Saturday 1/13/08

The tractor works!!! Grandpa brush hogged part of the pasture where a bunch of scrub trees were trying to grow.

We rearranged stuff in the barn to make room for more stuff, and picked up the feral kitty that we acquired from God knows where. We are .3 mile from the road, but she has been there for over a month. Amy caught her yesterday, and dropped her off at my vets for shots and spaying. I picked her up this morning and we took her back to the farm. She will have to spend several days in a cage, to give herself time to heal, then she can return to being an elusive shadow, if she wants. I named her "Chips", cause I paid my 1/2 of her vet bill with money from Mike's poker winnings from last night.

Grandson got to fly his kite, ride his new tricycle, and help mom pound nails. He went to bed 1 1/2 hours early, to make up for no nap.

The horses are enjoying the wind break. You can see by the amount of manure left there.

My arm is about the same. I'm upset over something I found out on Wed. My oncologist tried to call me on new years eve, to see about treatment for the clots in my arm. He called the house number, and we were at the farm. He was going to offer to put me in hospital and do some extensive treatment with a clot dissolving drug. When I didn't answer his call, he just dropped it. Now it is too late for that treatment. It must be done before too much time has passed, or it does no good.
Even though it does no good for me to keep dwelling on this, I can't seem to let it go. Why didn't he call my cell number? His nurse, and his scheduler all have it. I know it is on all the paperwork I filled out when I registered at MDACC. I might have had my arm better by now, if only... I keep telling myself to let it go, but it is very hard to do. I pray that I can let it go, and stop dwelling on the 'IF ONLY"...